“The Kingdom of Heaven has come near”,

So why do I still feel the fear?

I can’t rhyme it, or time it,

Can’t explain it away,

But at the end of the day

It all comes down to trust,

And I must

Listen only to You,

Only Your words are true.

I have lived with a lie

Saying that I

Am not good enough;

I will always let people down,

That in the end,

I won’t be the friend

That everyone is glad to have around.

A lie I have learned

That twists as it turns,

It leaves me wiped out

And fills me with doubt.

I think I do know

Where such lies come from, so

Why do they still grip me tight,

And force me to fight

For each inch of my soul?

I long to be whole.

And I thought we’d begun,

That the battle was won,

Jesus, You are my Lord,

I believe in Your word,

Show me what You see,

How I am meant to be.

Don’t let me live with this label

At the foot of the table,

When You have created me

Beautiful and free.

I’m your precious child,

With a heart running wild,

You have given me gifts

That are meant to lift,

Encourage, embellish,

A real life to relish.

So rip off these chains

Of the fear that remains,

The bonds now broken

Of those hard words once spoken,

Which condemned me

And left me

Uncertain and low.

The real me

Is ready to go.

Seven is my favourite number which holds many Scriptural resonances. So here are seven numerical snippets from my life: 1. I was born in 1967, in a village in Warwickshire, England, and grew up singing in the choir and bellringing in our village Anglican church. 2. I made a first true Christian commitment at age 14 through my school Christian Fellowship. 3. I studied Modern and Medieval Languages for 4 years at the University of Cambridge. 4. In 1993 I married Nick and we have 4 children. 5. I am English and have lived in France since 1999. I hold both British and French nationality and am bilingual. 6. 7 things close to my heart, in no particular order: Fair Trade commerce, cats, green tea, the ocean, Highland cattle, languages, and The Chosen series. 7. In July 2021 I created and began to lead a monthly online Christian poetry group, TRELLIS*, under the umbrella of the UK Association of Christian Writers. (*standing for Trust, Risk, Encouragement, Listening, Love, Inspiration, and Support) What a blessing now to join this inspirational Red Thread Poets group. Praying for the manifold blessings of the Spirit on us all, as we write our beautiful poems and songs full of heavenly inspiration and power.