My Relation to My Reflection

I look in the mirror, mesmerized by what I see.

Loneliness affects me, and when I lose sleep from thinking I sigh deeply. . .

My eyes show it, for my reflection reveals lines,

and the darkness through the window to my soul

shows signs of turbulent times,

but on the outside I look fine.

See, my struggles with drugs, street love, pistols,

along with money making

have made me numb,

and this drones through me as I come to grips with the beat of the drum.

When the rabbit has the gun, the game’s not fun, huh?

My relation to this reflection I see is like me being an uncle,

looking down to my niece, knowing we come from the same seed,

but feeling she doesn’t belong to me.

Whether it’s not liking what I see,

or hoping to see more of what’s not before me.

I fail to recognize it’s me.

My relation to my reflection reflects my relationship to myself,

the experience of separation when you can’t see the beauty in self.

The aimless task of trying to be like someone else

until that image eventually melts.

When you have no one else, you begin to appreciate self.

So I take a closer look into the mirror,

hoping to relate to my reflection. . . . . .

Marshall Jones is a 42 year old man on a lifelong journey of bearing fruit for the Kingdom of God. The author with Jessica Jones of THE PRODIGAL SON, Marshall's Biography includes his almost 21 years life sentence incarceration. THE PRODIGAL SON, just published January 2024, They married November 1, 2022. Marshall is also author of "A RAVEN'S MEAL" (RoseDog Books), a poetry collection, he aspires to target the grey areas and the people who are terribly misunderstood by society. Believing that everyone deserves a voice, he shares his testimony in his books and in their Red Granite Daily Devorionals (800 and counting). He also tries to use his gifting to share other people's experiences as well. Writing from the prison system that has now housed his body for almost 21 years, but also from the place that has been the catalyst to his freedom. As Jessica discovered in 2019, working as an employee in the Wisconsin correctional system, "Marshall lives more freely within the walls of that prison than any other person I’ve met in my life outside". Click on the YouTube Links below for these books and on the 'PUBLISHED WORKS' LINK FOR BOTH.