Pardon my flaws that keep me out of fellowship with You,
patiently bear with me when my faults become evident.
See the difficulties I face with trying to fight against
the negative influences that try to come back,
and even the ones I allow to have residence.
I’m at war sometimes with myself,
taking steps ahead only to find out I have to start again,
trying to build without my foundation,
I have to tear everything down because I lack patience.
Pardon my flaws that keep me out of fellowship with You,
because I’m falling in love with temporary fixes,
knowing it only soothes me for a second before
it ultimately sets me back.
It’s like I fail to trust You even when You hold the plan
for my life in Your hands.
Know better, but I see nothing happening,
my faithfulness is in question for moving away
instead of hanging in there.
I’m sorry I keep sabotaging what You’re doing,
all because I feel uncomfortable being suspended in air…
Pardon my flaws that keep me out of fellowship with You,
please forgive my haste.
It’s just that I don’t want my life to go to waste in prison,
and I grow older in this space.
Help me to move this stumbling block because I’m tired of tripping……
