WALKING STEPS – a series



My life was tragedy.

My life was loss.

My life was sadness.

for the people I lost.


My life was anger,

constant with struggle.

My life was fear.

Of the tricks of the devil.


My life was shame,

helpless and hurt.

Carrying my sorrow,

while living in dirt.


My life was arrogance,

covered with pride.

My life was prison,

all locked up inside.


My life is now freedom,

broken those chains.

I now know the reason,

for my purpose and aim.


My life is Growth,

with a capital G.

My life is Gratitude,

the next line you can see.


My life is ministry,

a mission of sorts,

full of excitement,

with no fear or retorts.


AJ White,

December 22/2020






Yet awake.

Now my dreams

don’t seem fake.


Once my eyes

caught the light, 

then my future 

became so bright.


All I ever wanted!

Every desire of my heart,

has come to fruition. 

As I wished from the start.


Now, what I see has become reality.

Of course in part, through duality.

The eyes that are within me,

are now one with my heart.


AJ White

January 20/2021

7:28 pm CST





Glaring through the window,

My weakened arms waving goodbye.

Knowing it was forever, 

Again, I would see Him nye!


No tears will fall from this loss, 

An acquaintance to say at best!

It was no decision from a coin toss,

An experience maybe, or life test.


I will admit, we had some good times!

But none I gained from, to say the least.

Another hard life lesson,

Yet as well a loss for the beast.


I won’t be missing you this time. 

Yet, with every bullet so far.

A rejoicing sense of grieving.

An eagle on a course over par.


Thanks for the memories, 

Even though they caused me pain.

But for me has become to Live is Christ,

And of course to die is gain!


Take care my addiction, I mean this as goodbye,

Just so that you all can know it’s name.


Andrew James White

November 10/2021







In this room I stay safe

From a world I once knew.

To detox those demons,

To start fresh, to start new.


LORD keep me growing

And great things we will do!

These trials will build me stronger

And bring me closer to YOU!


My life is no longer 

A life that I plan, 

I will walk in anticipation 

Of the Work of YOUR HANDS!


Lead me and guide me 

And great seeds YOU will sow. 

I know these tests of my faith

Can only help me TO GROW!


Andrew James White

Dec. 16/2021



Andrew White, Saskatoon, Saskatchewan Canada. My Early years were pretty full of loss and sorrow. I was the youngest of four kids (2 Brothers & 1 Sister). I was Born in Woodstock Ontario in 1971. My parents moved us to B.C when I was about a year old, where Life just seemed to become a dark cloud! My father was soon incapacitated the first year that we were there due to a severe truck accident that left Him with severe brain damage and having to stay in nursing homes due to the severity and the fact that My Mother had her hands full with 4 kids already. This was the beginning of a long period of dark events that seemed to plague my life. It wasn't 6 years before Mother passed away of heart failure. Yea! There was me at the age of 7 without both of my parents and clueless as to how to deal with any of this emotional baggage. I just had to avoid feeling at all costs and found sources to do so. By the age of 14, I was a drug addicted alcoholic, trying everything under the sun that made me numb, or distracted the emotional pain. I made a few attempts at getting my life in order and tried to learn new ways of dealing with tragedy. But as I made attempts to clean up, something else tragic would happen. I Lost my 3 best friends by the time I became 27 years old. I went to Bible college and tried to learn about faith so that I would have JESUS to turn to but ended up leaving the church because I was bitter about something and left the faith because of this, ending up back to square one. The place I knew would take care of all these troubles. I became a Heroin addict and was on a journey through my own wilderness. Lost and alone. Never married because I couldn’t get too close in fear that I might just lose another close person in my life. I made 4 bastard children that grew up to dislike everything about me. I Just couldn't win for losing. My Siblings were getting tired of watching me die and pretty much had to sever all ties with me, so they didn't have to live their lives in fear of losing their little brother all the time. With all that being said, I will say that "everything happens for a reason!" And for those of us that Love THE LORD, it is for a good reason! I have HIV, but I have managed to keep it undetectable by the Grace of GOD! I am still not married but have built a friendship with my middle daughter. And I am blessed with a grandson now! Writing has now become the source for dealing with all those emotions and I try to abstain from drugs and alcohol for the most part. I am allowing THE LORD to do HIS work on my Life and prepare me for my future journey with HIM. I always knew I could write poetry so I guess I have been an aspiring writer all my life!